This woman was quite successful in the outer world, yet she could not make contact with the value of her essential nature...or really, the value of anything other than accomplishment.
Her inner life was distant… almost unreal.
She had a wounded femininity so deep that an unconscious depression had a constant tug on her life force energy.
No matter how freely she flowed in the external world, there was always a felt sense of lack.
She spent years giving endlessly to the world, yet felt a chronic emptiness that she could not quite name.
Deep down, she knew her boundaries were paper-thin, and though she gave so much, she rarely could feel seen or valued.
Although part of her yearned for a deeper connection to self and others, she could not quite break free of the mechanical roles dictated by expectation rather than desire.
When it came to her body and sexuality, she felt disconnected, unsure of what it meant to truly desire, to experience joy, or to honor her own needs. She had no idea of what it would mean to feel her own hunger and enjoy her sexuality.
Her dreams, once vibrant, continued to dull, which was quite reflective of her struggle to connect with her instincts, creativity, and passion.
But she slowly began to realize the crossroad she stood at. It took one crisis in her life—a breakup—to bring about her moment of reckoning.
For the first time, she felt the stirring of something deeper: the question of who she really is and the hunger to reclaim her connection to life, love, and herself.
She realized that she didn't want to just survive; she wanted to feel alive, vital, connected, vibrant, playful, flexible, and sexual.
So she took a leap.
She began to walk towards the lack, the depression, the emptiness, and she began to find a wellspring of life force.
She walked into the wild and began to see the potency of vitality, eros, and instinctual energy in her depths.
This story is actually part of my story.
This is part of my own reckoning with a death-dealing wounded instinctuality so deep within the self that it honestly took me out of living a truly authentic life.
This journey is why myself, @__mackenzieamara__ @uncontrollably_me and @movingsouls.dmt came together to create WILD.
Because we wanted to create a ritual container to gather women who have felt similar lacks, confusions, dismemberments, and give them a place to work it out together through story, music, dance, breath, and grounded reflection.
Four women will lovingly hold this container…
All four of us have needed to traverse dark waters to remember what was wild within us.
All of us have been initiated by grief & self-forgetting in our own unique ways to become who we are.
WILD longs to be the sanctuary and gathering place for any woman who finds herself on an initiatory journey of self-remembrance.
Our first gathering is this coming Saturday, November 23rd, at 3-6:30 EST.
We would love to have you.
Join us at: www.drdaniellealexander.com/wild-woman
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